Saturday, 30 July 2011
Still thinking about 'Love Wins'
So I have been thinking about all the discussions that were going on to do with heaven and hell. I love how everyone is so passionate about the topic. (I know...myself included). Whether the debate was believing in a more black and white hell, or not, everyone seemed to have their thoughts and ideas about it, and wanted the forum to voice those thoughts. Some more than others...hehe...we love you Ro! Which is great...you know me, I love a good debate! (Despite not really wanting Facebook to be the venue for that, *sigh*...oh well)
Anyway, I got to thinking about it even more, and chatting with a friend over Skype. And after much thought, and realization of my own particular passion and determination to believe, or hope for something that I cannot actually know for sure, I have come to the conclusion that in the long run, it doesn't actually matter too much.
Sure there are those of us who hope for a God who might be bigger and more gracious than we had originally thought, and will be able to change even the hardest of hearts, so that not a one will perish. But there are also those who have a more traditional belief in who will and who will not get in to heaven. And both of those lines of thinking are ok.
But the truth is that actually none of us can know for sure! As much as we passionately debate for what we hope for or determinedly believe in, none of us will know without a shadow of a doubt! Anything we think, about what happens after death, is actually only ever going to be speculation. Unless we have died ourselves and come back to tell everyone what happened, then we can't possibly know!
So what does this leave us with?
There is nothing much more that we can do, except for what we do with our lives now.
To say who will or won't get to heaven is to already make a judgment about peoples hearts, and this is not our task. We are not here to judge, and therefore, all we can do is love people now, and live the best lives we can, now! Growing, maturing, learning, loving, accepting...now.
How many of us actually live in now?
How often are we looking forward to, hoping for, counting down the days till something coming up tomorrow, in the future? Me...often!
How much time do we spend simply thinking about now, and what we can do with this minute?
And of course there is nothing wrong with hoping, thinking about, and looking forward to the future, but in terms of heaven and hell...we can't ever be in complete control of what will happen, as we simply cannot ever know for sure, so therefor, all we can be in control of is our lives here and now.
And I know, for me, that right now, I have a long way to go in becoming a more whole, and less destructive human being. I know I can learn to love people more genuinely, not grump so much at Ben, treat everyone fairly, be less judgmental, be more honest, be less blunt, get rid of that sneaky foot-in-mouth disease that creeps to the surface every now and then, be less selfish, be more vulnerable...etc, etc, etc. And I reckon that is a whole lot to keep me busy for the next twenty years!